Cannon Beach here we come

Excited to get away this weekend!  Of course I will miss my little princess but it is good for Brian and I as a couple to have a weekend away once a year.  It will be nice to be in a romantic hotel just the two of us and we will be able to sleep in and do what we want for once :-)  I will hopefully have pictures to post after our trip.  I hope everyone has a great weekend!

Is the end near?

I downloaded an application for my phone and have been listening to James McDonald and his teachings. I just got done listening to his sermon on Revelation and the Wrath of God.  Everything is pointing to the end being near. I started tearing up when he was talking about how we should pray for our family and friends that have not accepted Jesus Christ. Thinking about the end really scares me. I am confident in my walk with the Lord but there are a lot of people I care about that may not have that same relationship with him.  Another thing that also scares me is the pain and suffering that we are all going to endure. I worry more about Bailey and how will it effect her?  How old will she be? No one knows when this is going to happen, but all the signs point to sooner rather than later. Are you ready?

On a brighter note this picture ALWAYS makes me smile

She is the light of my life and I don't know where I would be without her!  I want to spend every waking moment with her.  She makes me laugh and I worry about her constantly.  I have always been a worrier but now I worry for different reasons :-)

Japan part 2

Why do I do this to myself?  I keep watching videos on CNN and keep wondering what I can do to help?  I feel so helpless. I am thinking about giving money, but I don't have any extra right now :-( I wish I had some bright idea on how to help these people!

Japan

I have been thinking a lot about Japan lately and what they are going thru.  Life as they know it has changed forever.  Not only are their thousands of people dead, but there are thousands more missing.  Whole towns have been wiped out and people have been swept out to sea never to be heard from again.  It is in times like these where faith has to take over.

I believe that God has a plan for everyone, and this is part of his plan. Today in church we were told that over half the world's population doesn't have running/clean water to drink from yet American's are still in this "gimmy gimmy" mode.  We should be thankful for the roof over our head, warm beds, and running water.  I know tonight I am counting my blessings.

Thinking about Japan

What a horrible day for Japan!  The video is amazing.  I can't even begin to imagine what the people in Japan are going thru.  My thoughts and prayers are with everyone and I hope that they are able to rebuild their city.

Does hard work ever pay off?

Do you ever feel like your hard work never pays off?  I work so hard every day, and do my best and then come to find out it doesn't really matter.

We found out today who gets to work from home as the pilot group.  I'm not very happy that I am not in the group, but just unhappy that one person in particular (who is a slacker) gets the opportunity.  Why couldn't it be me?

Another day, another dollar

It sure is a dark and rainy day today.  Bored at work again and I wish I could be at home with Bailey and Brian tucked into my nice warm bed. I am excited to go bra shopping after work (sad isn't it) and then I am going to try out a new recipe for cream or rosemary potato soup that I found.  We will see how good it turns out!  Happy Thursday everyone!

1 down, 1 to go

Found out today that all my hormone levels are normal!!!!! That is a good thing!  Now we have to find out if Brian is the same :-)  I am keeping my fingers crossed that his tests come back normal too!

Today is going so slow

I am starting to really get bored of my job!  I wish they would hurry up and speed up the process of working from home.  That is the only thing that keeps me from looking elseware for work :-)

zest for life

So first of all I have to say I love my husband more than anything.  He is the greatest thing that ever happened to me.  He is smart, funny, down to earth, and a wonderful father and husband.  That being said I am having a really difficult time with the fact he is not motivated to work or do something better with his life.  He has a wonderful opportunity to eventually become a full time Longshoreman (which in turn would allow me to be a stay at home mom) but he is not persuing this wonderful gift!  All he needs to do is work 1-2 days a week but he isn't making the effort.  We have had many conversations about why but nothing seems to help.  At this point I am so frustrated that whenever someone brings it up I just shut down.  I wish he had more confidence in himself that he CAN do it.  I don't know how else to help him. I am just tired of the financial pressure being all on my shoulders.  It is a lot of pressure and I feel myself crumbling and wish he could see that. I don't know how to approach the situation without him shutting down and without him saying that I am "nagging".  I just want what is best for Bailey.  If he was to work 1-2 days a week not only would he become full time at some point, but we would qualify for a home loan which is my ultimate goal!  How do I make him see my point of view?

Book of Job

I am going to start my bible study in the book of Job.  I have heard from many people that this book will help with what I am going thru at this point in my life.  My goal is to read at least 2 chapters a day so it shouldn't take too long :-)

My first entry

I figured it would be a good idea to start blogging again.  I haven't blogged since the days of Livejournal :-)

Life has been throwing me a few curve balls lately but I am ready!  We have been trying to have our 2nd child for about a year now but have had no success.  I now have come to realize that everything happens for a reason and when God is ready for us to have our next one we will. I think having some tests done helped me realize that there is nothing physically wrong with me, but it will happen when it happens. I have to trust that God knows what he is doing.

Bailey of course is doing wonderful.  She is such a joy to be around.  She is always happy and so laid back. I enjoy having conversations with her about life, death, heaven, and everything in between.

We started attending Abudant Life back in October and LOVE it!  It is such a great church, full of wonderful people that are there for the same reason we are.  Bailey loves the children's church and enjoys playing with other children her age.

Hopefully I can commit to blogging at least once a day :-) we will see!